Nuh-Nuh-Nuh

DAMNIT !!!

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 21:46:19 GMT

They made me wait for almost a week and after no less than 3 "we'll call you by(s) ..." and even after a nice friendly conversation with the hiring manager yesterday ... I got a "we're not gonna hire you" EMAIL ... A Fucking EMAIL !!!!

IT WAS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME NOT HIT THE REPLY BOTTON AFTER I TYPED, "!!!! FUCK YOU BITCHES !!!!" I SWEAR I ALMOST DID IT!
My finger just hovered there over the return key for like a minute.
... I am better than that.

How lame and unprofessional to not even have the common courtesy to tell me to piss off by telephone when she had me on the bloody telephone ... They may as well just sent me a sodding text.

!!!!!!!!!!!!! LAAAAAAAAAME !!!!!!!!!!!

Eeect, I wouldn't feel write charging someone $200 for a haircut anyhow. Even obnoxious rich people. I don't think that place much suited me or my style, I just thought I might go for the big bucks.
Whatever ...
I have vented ... I feel better now
I'm gonna throw back some vodka and lay down some new phat beats tonight and pretend it never even happened

What was I taking about

Hey Kristina ! (?) ! :P what up ??

And then I laughed my fucking ass off !!!!

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 04:28:03 GMT

...

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 22:36:13 GMT

Bohemian (boho—informal) is defined in The American College Dictionary as “a person with artistic or intellectual tendencies, who lives and acts with no regard for conventional rules of behavior.”

tee hee

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 05:35:45 GMT

God that sucked !!!! (the Super Bowl I mean)

Mon, 02 Feb 2009 04:18:37 GMT

Is it baseball season yet !?

At least if the call sucks in baseball someone gets to argue (at some length if they choose) about it and even when the guy is thrown out, the umpire still gets an ear full about what a fucking hack he is.

mmmmm .... 162 regular season games.
Spring Training is just around the corner.
I need a job
a place to live
a place for band practice
and to buy some tickets ...
This could be a sweeeeet summer.

Home sweet home ::: 47 day!

sigh

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 06:27:41 GMT

That is something that make life worth living ... it changes the way everything looks ... puts a smile on my face from my heart ... makes my whole body feel young and healthy ... simply some kind of wonderful.
Thank you wife
I love you

I was a cute boy ... once ... in, like, 1987.

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 00:46:09 GMT

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 06:29:49 GMT

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 05:44:33 GMT

HEY, I know lets say I have tension headaches and try some other drugs :::
Let's go with Flexeril. Fioricet, heat and massage. (Oh and one more blood pressure med)
Worked pretty well today ... so well I couldn't drive to school
Legal drug use and addiction is not very fun and lacks a certain amount of ... glamour, I think.
At this point I don't even care what the side effects are, I just want the pain to stop. i will become the House of the beauty school (you know justifiably high but brilliant) and once the tension/stress/high blood pressure/everything else goes away then i will be headache-less.
and

Right now the answer has changed again to STAY until March 20th
my son needs me
my wife needs my help more than money
and I won't be taking my state boards until the end of Feb and will need to be around school to prepare ... even though my hours are done at the end of this month.
I will look for salon work in Seattle and take it if it come but i will do my searching from here and take some loooong weekends over there to look for housing (that we still have NOT figured out yet) and do interviews and junk.
Yes, this answer may change but I don't think so.
and
my head is starting to hurt ... SHIT!!!!
I'm gonna go take a shower and go to bed now !

So when LJ dies ... where are you going to go ??

Fri, 09 Jan 2009 17:34:26 GMT

???
Just wondering
???

What is all of this about LJ going down ??

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 19:23:26 GMT

and does anyone know a nice easy way to back up my journal from the site to my puter?

http://www.nowpublic.com/tech-biz/livejournal-closing-possibly

HHHHHMMMMM

I like this ... and not just because of that ...

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 17:27:38 GMT

oh yah and ...

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 08:08:01 GMT

HI.

hey you there, in Seattle ... there ... Want some of our snow

Tue, 06 Jan 2009 04:41:48 GMT

I'm happy for you all that most of yours has gone
I wish i could say the same

and the car

and the path to the other car

and then there was this little snow bank

and what happens when you leave you car window open over Christmas break

oh and what our roads look like EVERYDAY.... yaaaaah.

Oh how I long for a nice 42 degree rain storm ... it could even last a week, I wouldn't mind

Oh and one more thing ....
Please enjoy this bit of odd cool
http://www.bootieusa.com/bestofbootie2008/20%20-%20Brat%20-%20Easy%20Heaven.mp3
Don't usually dig stuff like this but ...

Everyday is like Saturday

Sun, 04 Jan 2009 00:33:45 GMT

Sitting in this place, I'm trying to find the word that describes this;
It's like you've been somewhere too long, the heat in the room is just a little too high and the there is a staleness to he air you are breathing. Like when you have let yourself sleep too long or you have a headache that just doesn't seem to go away. Someone calls it being cooped up, but you are just feeling constricted by a clutter that won't let you stretch out. like when you are wearing too many patterns of flannel and you have overly warm feet in bunched up socks in side of house slippers that you cannot stand the texture of against you bare feet. The sensation of having smoked to many cigarettes and drank to the point of one more drink and you will throw up into a a toilet that is as clean as one you might find in one of those houses where you can rent a sleeping room and you all share a bathroom at the end of the hall and it only gets cleaned once a month by the owner of the building who always seems to have a food stain on his too small t-shirt ... but you haven't even had a a drink or a smoke all day. When your teeth seem to be growing moss even after you brushed and flossed an hour ago. Like when your neck is sore form sitting too long in that chair but you will rather just rest into the discomfort rather than try to stretch it out. Like when you are just holding the down the button on the remote watching that there is nothing on going round and round and even when something catches your eye you cannot stop because the heater in on and too loud and you are too warm again and you are wishing you had never cut your hair, like you should go for a walk but it is 20 degrees outside and all sorts of icy and snowy on your path ... and you cannot get up the energy to change your clothes and you muscles are too atrophied anyhow. Like when you have been on Vicodin and /or other meds so long that you feel like there is dirt in in you veins and wet cotton is what your tissue and skin is made of. All the sounds you have invented are dull and boring you before anyone has even heard them and the daylight trying to get through the shut blinds, is now fading so fast that you can almost not see that keys clearly enough to keep typing this and the light you might turn on will be like sleepy candle light and not a sharp light of alertness and progress. you have had a headache too long and in the back of your mind you are (all joking aside)wondering if you are dying and you feel like you are always going to feel this way ...
Sitting in this place, I'm trying to find the word that describes this;

It's a sin and junk.

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 09:25:14 GMT

SLOTH
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sloth_(deadly_sin)
Procrastination
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Procrastinatio
FUCKINSHITFUCK
http://whatIamsaying.com/manthissucks

On 1.1.9@1.2.9

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 11:02:53 GMT

New Years Resolution ::: check
Finished that bottle of Cooks ::: check
Head feels better or am I just keeping properly drugged ::: check
I don't find Vicodin an interesting drug, but it is an ok pain killer in higher than recommended doses ::: check
Snowing (everywhere) ::: check
NOt sleeping again ::: check
Too worried about my head to fall asleep (yeah, a little) ::: check
Watched Tom Waits concert on TV tonight and was reminded of several things about art and music ::: check (yeees, check indeed)
Just has a great chicken sandwich ::: check
Planet of the Apes (the Original) is on ::: check
Gotta go poop ::: check

So when you eat chips and salsa, do you eat it for the salsa on the chip or for the chip with a little extra favor on it(the salsa)? And how many chips with salsa is the proper amount to eat in a sitting.
My hair is buggin' me

happy freaking new year !!!

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 08:27:14 GMT

I am sitting in Wapato in my brother -in -laws hill top home watching the fire works go off out the window and hearing the sound of random caliber gun fire. The kids and my wife went to bed hours ago. /I love these "alone" times/
I've been watching an Ab Fab mini marathon on BBC America and am nearly through one of the big ass bottles of Cooks .... yup, I'm pretty sure that is the sound of automatic wepons fire outside now. I am near the reservation ... why not?
I thought my night would be dull until my brother in law called form Seattle a while ago to ask if I would go out nad feed the neighbors dogs ... Well not now with the gun fire ... maybe in the morning
Yah know, I'm pretty sure this is not the way my life is supposed to be going.
On the up side my head feels slightly better.
Whatever

Sinus headache ... migraine ???

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 09:29:08 GMT

Who knows ... I have some Vicodin and Ibuprfen and nasal spray and Sudafed. It's like 1AM and I cannot sleep.
I really should go lay down and see what happens. I am wobbly and tired.
mOre in the next day

HAPPY LATE BIRHTDAY BABY !!!

Wed, 31 Dec 2008 09:22:17 GMT

qwerky911 ... I love you man and hope you b-day was a good one!

Aneurism !!!!! ???

Tue, 30 Dec 2008 09:12:04 GMT

So I ended up in the bloody ER last night. After riding the old exercise bike for about 30 mins, I got in the shower (like yah do) and I was fucking nailed in the back of the head by a seriously painful headache. It almost knocked me down. I staggered out to my wife to let her know what was up. She sorta blew me off with a, "Huh, you probly just pinched a nerve" or something. I sat on the chair in the living room and waited for it to go away. She brought me some aspirin and went about her business. After a couple more minutes I concluded it was time to go to hospital. She basically dropped me off because Jamison would not EVEN allow her to stay in the building. On my own, had to endure the CT scan, IV, blood draw (twice) and a fucking spinal tap. It turned up nothing conclusive. I went home.
Today, I have had a sore lower back and a pressure pack sinus headache all fucking day. I swear if I didn't believe they would stab the fuck out of me again I would go back. I've been downing Alka Seltzer Cold every four hours just praying it would go away ... I am worried.
Sitting here is making my back hurt again and my right eye feels like it's going to pop out. It is hurting from my sinuses to my right eye to the back of my neck. This is NO BUENO.
I need to lay down ... may be an ice pack ... I need a pain killer of 5!

Christmas morning is here ...

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 09:19:39 GMT

I can never seem to get to sleep here. My heart is not beating extraordinarily fast but it is pounding hard enough that I can feel it in my neck and hear it through the quiet that is my in-laws house while all are asleep. It feels like it will never stop snowing and my soul is just lying on its back out in the foot or so that is on the ground. I cannot help but feel old, fat, and a little sick and tired. For some reasons, I have come to despise the holidays. I know why ... I just don't like it. My mother, tonight, told me that due to the cold she doesn't think she and Dad will be moving up to Seattle form So Cal. She is having far too much arthritis pain in her leg (and everywhere else) to be able to handle the moist, cool weather. I cannot recall the last time we were together for the holidays ... it has been many years and it will now, no doubt be more. I can't handle what is to come later on what with all the gift giving and merriment. I am always happy to receive gifts, however it excruciatingly awkward when I (we), being the students, the poorest ones in the family can never seem to reciprocate ... at least not as I would like to. It all leaves me feeling a bit ill and anxious. As much as I would enjoy just using that time honored tradition of drinking my way through, just sort of numbing it all down, this is quite frowned upon here. I do have my anti anxiety Rx handy, so maybe I just use that. I'll be chill and no one will be the wiser. Not that anyone really give two shits about how I am really feeling, but at least I won't be bothering anyone. Yes indeed, Marry Christmas, I feel like shit.
On the bright side (and there is one ... so hoo-raaah for that), Jamison gets to open presents and sort of know what's going on this year and I guess that what rally should matter here. It can be a holiday that I can enjoy, even if just to see his excitement as he rips open his presents.
I wish I could go to sleep right now ... I wish my heart would get out of my throat. I wish all of you a merry Christmas and to all a (how does it go?) good night.

Almost HOme .... like the cookie ... bitter sweet and junk

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 06:19:46 GMT

So I have made the decision, it was not fun or easy but it has to be done.
I should be finishing up with the final bit of school around January 21st and I will then proceed to move my newly educated ass back to Seattle to find a J to the O to the B. While I really hope to score something in the salon industry directly, I will be taking anything that comes my way in the meantime. We are running out of funding and we need money especially to move. So if anyone out there knows of a salon that wants a fresh out of school newbie, please let me know. (Yeah, I need to get my network up and running, its true) But really what it comes down to is this, I need to make my family some money and I will take whatever anyone may know of as long as there is no heavy lifting over 50lbs (I dont need any more hernias, dig?). I will have a car and I have a great place to stay in West Seattle.

Although I am totally exited about getting this adventure going and putting an end to the agony of the last couple years, I am going to have a really hard time not seeing my family for about 2 months. It is even a little tough thinking about not seeing Jamison every morning when he wakes and being able to kiss him to sleep at night, but I need to do this or we might not make it.

Does anyone know anyone at Habitude or Salon 7??

Does any know of a bar who needs a bar back or some place need a cashier or a dish washer? ::: You get the idea.

Sincerely, thanks to anyone who might be able to help out!

Theres, like, a foot of snow here and its 12 degrees I any need a snow plow to get there from here.

This one; Ive been singing this to myself thinking I am someone singing it to me for a about a year or so. Enjoy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsz-EeNZBkI

{and why can I not figure out how to embed media where I want in the post ... it's always on bloody top ... gggrrr !!}

a Day...

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 09:05:16 GMT

It's currently 1.6 degrees above 0 outside
and I cut off my dreads today
I only want to watch TV until I fall asleep
that will not take long

Remember when it was all so fucking simple

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 00:31:38 GMT